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So I am sooooo excited because my flight to Illinois is officially booked!! I don't know what I am excited about the most. Honestly, I think I am more excited to see my nephew Halo than anything else. I miss that little booger. I miss his smiling face and silly expressions. In exactly two weeks I will be back home seeing all of my friends and family. I know I have been gone for only a couple of weeks but when your best friend, nephew, and a few friends play a big part of your life, they are family and nothing makes a big hole in your heart like being away from family. Blood doesn't determine family. The fact that they are there for you and love you determines it. My father is blood but he acts nothing like family to me. See, I don't exactly have the most picture perfect family in the world but I have people in my life I would take a bullet for.

That's why I can't wait to be back. I know its only for a week but it will be the best week! I can't wait to get my bubba back into my arms and just give him the biggest hug ever! I can't wait. Now its a two week waiting game. I just gotta keep myself busy otherwise it will go by super slowly!! 

I just can't wait. Flying into Chicago on the 24th!! Spending the day there and going to Cards/Cub game that night and spending a whole week in Decatur. I never thought I would be this excited to be back home. I never felt like this when I lived in Nashville, I guess because I had family there it didn't bother me as much and I could just hop in the car and in 6 hours see my friends and family. It just KILLS me being 15 hours away. 

I don't know what I would do if anything drastic happened while being in Colorado and I can't be there. Thats what I am scared of the most. I think I will have a sense of calm come over me when I get there, some kind of closure when I see that people are doing well.

I decided I am going to surprise my grandparents. They don't know I am coming and I would love just to see the smile on their faces!!